I’m sorry if I seem a tad irritable this week and weekend.
My parent’s car insurance expired and I am on their policy…Dad is driving Pop’s car, so it’s ok that their insurance has expired but I, unfortunately, now have no insurance. I’m sorry if I’m a little worried.
I have an audition tomorrow at USF that I feel drastically unprepared for. The clarinet scholarships are no longer available, they would have been if I’d auditioned last week, but I never got the emails from the instructor with the time/location for the audition. So I’m rather irritated about that. I’m sorry if I seem tense.
There’s this guy I’m interested in…he knows I’m interested, but I have no idea what he’s thinking at all. Maybe he’s interested, but isn’t ready for a relationship, or doesn’t know if it’s God’s will for him to have interest in me. Or maybe he’s not interested at all, and doesn’t know how to tell me. Whatever the case may be…I’m slightly confused. (And he’s very flirtatious too.) I’m trying to figure out how to be friends and get to know him, while still giving him space, without scaring him away completely. But we are friends, and he’s been hanging out with me and with my siblings a fair amount recently, and I’m very very thankful for that. I’m sorry, my friend, for being such a silly girl.
My hormones are going crazy and I’m feeling kind of depressed. Nothing particularly drastic going on that would cause me to be so depressed, but I’m just feeling kind of down, lonely, and tired. I just need a hug, or a snuggle. I’m sorry if I’m not as cheerful as usual.
I’m almost done with school and I’m not sure what to do next year for housing, or even for a career. I think I’m going to USF, but maybe music education isn’t what God is calling me to. Maybe he wants me to me a music minister kind of thing in a church, or maybe I’m supposed to go into something like…counseling. I don’t know for certain yet. And I’m not sure if I will be living at the condo next year, or if I’ll be in a dorm. I know I can’t really go back to my house, so I don’t know what to do. I’m sorry for being so indecisive.
Lord Jesus! Please help me to be cheerful and be joyful in you! I know you have everything in your hands, but sometimes life gets so complicated and stressful. Let me know your will for my life, close doors on the places you don’t want me to go, and help me to find the open doors quickly. Send me the people who you want to influence me, and send me to the people who I am supposed to influence. I praise your wonderful name! Amen!